cuti oh cuti..

perghhh.. cuti ni mmg byk benda berlaku kat kite..

3 minggu pertama cuti.. kene tinggal sorg2 selesaikan keje yg menggunung..
keje yg ayah bagi n jgk keje yg berkaitan ngn uitm.. pergh..
bygkan 3 minggu dok sorg2.. x de sape nk ckp.. x de sape nk teman makan.. x de sape nk ajak borak n gelak.. last2.. collapse.. masuk wad sehari.. padan muke kat diri sndiri.. lps tu jatuh tangge plak smpi kene jait 8 jaitan.. x hbs kes jatuh tangge.. fakulti plak call nk itu nk ini.. hmm.. apela nasib.. dalam 3 mgu ni mmg disaster bg kite.. dh la tension sorg2 nye.. dgn health prob lg.. salah anta msg la kat org.. salah call org la.. kene marah bertubi2.. mmg dh x thn sgt.. klu bunuh diri tu x de hukum.. mmg x kan ade la post ni.. dh la x de sape nk dgr kte mengadu.. g kat org ni kene marah.. g kat org ni kene marah.. tension betul..

then adik kite blk rumah tmnkn n tlg siapkan ape yg patut.. seminggu lps tu kite masuk hspital lg.. wat operation ckit.. ha time ni.. sepatutnye 2 mgu dok wad.. tp kite on off dr hospital coz byk keje nk kene wat.. so as the result.. mmg kene marah la ngn doc.. dh la doc tu ex kte.. hmm..

dalam2 dok kua masuk hspital ni.. smpt lg kite g kmas bilik persatuan la.. g reunion la.. dok risau org tu.. dok risau org ni.. smpi adik kte marah.. die kua statement mahal kot.. die kate klu x jage diri.. die nk bgtau my parents yg kite x sihat.. huhuhu.. klu parents kite tau.. alamatnye.. terbalik jap dunia ni.. nk dijdkan cerite.. kesan dr bius operation hr tu.. jaitan luka kat kepale tu mereput.. ape hal ntah.. nyusahkan betul.. dh kene laser plak.. sakit kot.. rase cm nk cabut je kepale buang..

ni bru kua wad n ibu n ayah pn dh balik cni.. esok nk kene g penang plak.. adoi.. sakit kat kepale x hilang lg.. dh nk kne naik bas berjam2..

cuti sem kali ni mmg memenatkan.. just wish that my health can b better with da time.. i only have 2 years to settle everything.. than i want to live my life in a calm way o mybe to stop it.. i've been through this b4.. so i can get through this again..

truly tired,
( ")>
JANNAH

F,R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P

what do u think the meaning of FRIENDSHIP..

as for me.. in friendship.. i dont care who they are.. what they do.. n where they come from.. as long as i call them friend.. i'll try my best to give everything i can for them.. marah hanye sekejap.. setiap org akn wat kesilapan.. even i dont like them.. but i still call them friends.. they deserve what a friend should deserve..

org ckp.. dalam persahabatan sume kene jujur.. jgn tipu.. as for me.. so what kalau diorg tipu.. everyone must have reason y they did it right..

org cakap.. putus sahabat kalau tikam belakang kawan.. dalam kehidupan.. orang akan wat ape aje untuk kurgkan persaingan.. kite x boleh nk anggap dalam dunia ni sume org baik.. they need to survive on their on way..

but.. in my freindship.. i will refuse a few words.. i will refuse the word thanks.. i'm willing to do that thing for u.. no need thanks ok.. n kte jgk akan menolak perkataan sory.. dh menyusahkan n seumpamanye.. my freinds.. kite sanggup buat benda tu.. maksudnye x de la menyusahakan kite.. n kalau kawan x boleh terime kesalahan kawan.. sape lg.. x kan musuh kot..

korg mungkin akan cakap kite x penah bedepan dengan kesukaran dalam bekawan.. believe me.. kite dh berada dalam mcm2 situasi dalam berkawan ni.. yg salah kan kite walau kite x wat ade.. yg tikam belakang ade.. yg tikam depan pun ade.. but i take it as asam garam kehidupan..

ape yg kite ckp dalam post ni adelah hanye pendapat.. everybody have their own opinion.. go for wat u believe..

Love
( ")>
JANNAH..

W.O.R.D.S.........

words..
the most valuable thing 4 me in this world..
without words.. the world become empty n numbs..
without words.. is feel like dying..

perkataan..
dengan satu perkataan dunia boleh bergoncang..
dengan satu perkataan keluarge boleh berpecah..
dengan satu perkataan hati boleh tercalar..

kotoba..
kokoro no kotoba.. daremo ga shitteiru..
kuchibiru no kotoba.. seijitsu desu ka..??
anata no kotoba.. honto ka do..??

sesungguhnya perkataan la yang mewarnai dunia ini..
perkataan boleh membuatkan sesorang tenang..
perkataan boleh membuatkan seseorang yakin..
perkataan boleh membutkan seseorang gembira..

namun.. mengapa perkataan sering disalah gunakan..
perkataan bukan untuk menyakiti dan disakiti..
perkataan bukan untuk mempersenda dan dipersenda..
perkataan bukan untuk menangisi dan ditangisi..

hari ini..
dengan serangkai perkataan hati ini telah dilukai..
serangkai perkataan yang ringkas..
serangkai perkataan dari insan sama yg pernah menggunakan perkataan untuk menenangkan diri ini..
mungkin hati manusia memang mudah tercalar..
tapi sekali ia tercalar.. ianya sungguh menyakitkan..
parut nye berkekalan.. memori nya berpanjangan..

hati yang terluka..
( ")>
JANNAH

aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhh...............!!!!!!!!!!!!

hhhiiiiissssshhhhhhhh.......!!!!!!! dah lame x asah bakat mengamuk ni.. byk benda nk diamukkan.. but.. tak terlepas kua perasaan tu.. maybe.. when we get older.. rational become part of my principe.. hmm.. its no easy to be human right..?? we have to think carefully b4 do somethng.. i'm jealous to those people who can easily blurt out their feeling without think the consequences of what they do..

the reason that make me angry the most is.. those people who make me angry is those who r close to me.. people said that between friends and enemies.. friends have more possibilities to break our heart than our enemy.. it's true.. i cant object this statement..

hmm.. well.. if i talk more about hate.. the more i would think about it.. n the degree of my hatred become higher.. so better 4 me to think bout the happy thing rite..??

i glad that i got friends who can make me smile n make cry at the same time.. that would be a great memories to be keep on..

SO GUYS.. I'M PROUD TO BE FRIEND WITH ALL OF YOU.. THANX 4 STAND BY SIDE WHEN I NEED IT.. THNX 4 TREAT ME LIKE I'M ONE OF YOUR FAMILY.. THNX 4 TREAT ME THE WAY U ALL TREAT ME.. THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME..

LOVE,
( ")>
JANNAH

people who think they've been love by other people..

kawan kite penah cakap.. seseorang tu akan menggedik bile die rase die xde kawan.. but.. kenape plak dengn org yg berlgak macm bagus n sume org syg die pon nk menggedik.. tau x org lain rimas tgk die cam tu.. bkn sorg dua perangai cam tu.. ramai.. kalau gedik semulajadi xpe.. ni nmpak sgt dibuat2.. klu kiorg borak bedue elok plak perangai.. tp cube klu jantina lain.. pergh.. mcm cacing kepanasan.. x pon pntg nmpk org lain rapat ckit.. die pon nk ade yg terapat jgk.. hish.. mcm2 org dalam dunia ni..

ade lagi satu group makhluk tuhan ni.. nk org ikut cakp die je.. klu x ikut g ngadu kat org lain.. burukkan name org lain.. ni same la dengan spesis talam 18 muke.. kalau dah tahu x boleh nk wat bende tu.. x yah la nk nyusahkan org lain.. ni x.. nk jgk nyusahkan org lain.. klu org x layan.. wat ayat sedih.. nk mintk simpati.. pastu suke nk compare kan kenape org lain layan org ni mcm ni.. kenape x layan die camtu jgk.. eh.. tolongla.. klu dh perangai gedssss camtu.. ssh kot nk dapt kawan yg betol.. pastu nk jeles ngn org len.. hish.. x pahm betol la..

raye punye cite..

ape la masalahnye ngan pakcik ku 2 orang ni.. nak datang beraye x kisahla.. ni dah datang beraye patut saling bermaaf maafan.. tp ni p betekak pasal politik.. hish.. x paham betul.. topik mule die simple je.. pasal care mengurus kuarge.. tbe2.. masok plak cite pasal politik.. dah la sorg pembangkang sorang kerajaan.. hbs jiran2 kite tercengang dengar dr lua.. dh la rumah rapat2.. dah tenganga kitorg adk beradik x tau nak wat pape.. dah mcm ade sidang parlimen kat rumah ni ha.. pasal lesen pasir la.. lesen judi la.. lesen arak la.. hbs sume kua.. siap menjerit2 x tahan tu.. nasib baik sepupu depan rumah datg tengok.. pelik die nape bising sgt.. klu x mau ade yg betumbuk.. siap berdiri dh pakcik 2 org ni..

pening2.. kepada sesiape yg suke bercakap pasal politik tu.. tgk2 la tempat dan keadaan.. bukan salah bercakap pasal politik.. but dont be too fanatic.. polytic is a good isue.. but thing before talk about it..

from me,
JANNAH ( ")>

tsukareta.. tired.. penat..

hmm.. so tired.. my mind is full with assignment, project, tutorial, test, presentation, account to be checked, document to be read and sort out, calls to be make, faxes, people to b meet, frens n my family..

can u imagine a 22 years old girl need to manage all those things beside her study.. i just want one week.. a week to be free from all of this.. i know its my responsibilities.. but can i take a rest for a while..?? i also want to be like other teenagers who use their holidays just to rest n enjoy..

part of me like to do all that.. but sometime.. the other part of me seems to get bored about all of it and at that time my attitude start to change..

thats y lately i'm very easy to get angry n very easy to get sad.. the result.. people around me become the victim of my anger.. n become the one who cause me to cry..

even people will see my anger is not much.. n my cry is something that they can easily see.. only myself know the circumtances of that.. MY LIFE WILL BECOME SHORTER.. now i understand y people said that anger n cry can make u become older..

i want to tell people around me what i feel.. but i cant.. tell them means that i show them my weakness right.. even 'the jannah' that they know now is weak.. what happen if they do know bout the real me..

i'm very gratefull that i have frens who understand me.. actually i'm a person who can be easily read by other people.. i'm very grateful to have family who always by my side.. the prob is.. i'm just not good with heart to heart communication.. so they dont know my feeling.. so.. my solution is.. this blog..

i dont know y.. but i want to say sorry to everybody.. this time my post maybe too wordy to be read.. n make me look like i'm not a grateful person.. just.. i'm very very sorry..

from me,
JANNAH ( ")>

aidilfitri..

Alhamdulillah.. syawal come again.. ramadhan leave us.. lets pray so that we can have oppurtunity to see ramadhan again next year..

well this syawal a little bit different for me.. my mother has to follow my father for work.. n my house is the only one in my resident area that have people on it.. others is empty.. never mind.. its my second time after all.. last aidiladha also was celebrated like this..

i want to thnx those people who have been very kind to entertain me yesterday.. (even everybody does not know i have this blog.. only my sibling know bout this blog) i dont know y but since yesterdays afternoon until sahur this morning.. i'm in avery sad mood.. my tears very easy to flow.. maybe because i feel empty without my parents this raya.. huhuhu..

HAPPY EID MUBARAK.. SORRY FOR ALL THE MISTAKE I'VE DONE..


LOVE,
JANNAH ( ")>

the things that i dont tell means i dont want others to know..

all of my post for now is in english.. but allow me to use my favourite language this time..

kenape sume org tye psl benda yg kite xnk bgtau kat org lain.. dah la kite ni lemah ble org tye.. kite seorg yg x penah cakp tidak.. so ble org tye.. lju je mulut ni nk menjawab.. itulah kelemahan yg kite plg benci..

lg satu.. kite x suke org ckp kias2 n ckp blakang2.. klu x puas hati ckp dpn2.. mne yg salah kite akn try betulkan.. klu x bgtau smpi ble2 pn kita kan buat kesalahn yg same.. then ble kite wat kesalahan tu sume pn nk marah nk wat muke n bnda yg wat kite terase.. i'm just an ordinary human.. kite pn ade perasaan.. bkn senang nk jage hati sume org.. asik nk jge hati orh je.. spe nk jge hati kite..

am i wrong..??

the way i am is always backoff when the situation getting hard to handle.. i dont like to be in the middle of fighting.. if have to, i will never join the fight but will find even a weak solution to stop the fight.. im a peace person.. but y dont people understand me.. y people always blame me.. y do people blame me because i dont speak..

WHY..???

WHY..??
WHY..??
WHY..??

WHY DOES PEOPLE TEACH ME HOW TO TREAT OTHER PEOPLE.. WHY DONT THEY TEACH OTHER PEOPLE TO TREAT ME..
AM I THE ONE TO BE BLAME..?? WHEN SOMEONE DONT ACCEPT THE WHO I AM..
AM I THE ONE TO BE BLAME..?? WHEN WHEN I DONT TREAT PEOPLE WELL..
THE PRINCIPE THAT I HOLD ON TO FOR ALL THIS TIME IS.. DONT DO THE THING THAT U DONT WANT OTHERS TO DO TO YOU.. ITS SIMPLE..

I DONT LIKE TO GET ANGRY MEANS THAT I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO GET MAD AT ME..
I DONT LIKE TO TALK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE I DONT LIKE OTHERS TO TALK ABOUT ME..
THEY ASK ME TO BE CARE BOUT OTHERS FEELING..
BUT DO SOMEONE CARE ABOUT MY FEELING..

PLEASE.. EVERYONE PLEASE BE MATURED.. WHEN WE TALK BOUT FEELING THERES NO STOP FOR THAT..

doumo.. hajimemashite..

my first post at here.. hehehe..